Monday, May 28, 2012

No more complaints

你曾经对我来说是很重要的人,我很珍惜,但是一切是你亲手毁了。我原本是真心诚意地要原谅你但是后来我发现了,那个要原谅你的想法是大错特错。。。。从今以后我的人生再也没有你,面子书上的你是因为我顾及大局。。。。没有别的理由。。。不要想太多。。。我们之间什么都没有了~

我也要学会不再抱怨了因为抱怨你浪费我的网络、我的钱、我的力气、我的脑力、我的眼力、我的时间、我的细胞。。。。你已经出局了!没有抱怨的必要毕竟抱怨就像是为自己抽了自己一耳光而再抽自己一耳光。抱怨完全不能解决问题,只会让自己更受伤。反正我也是塞翁失马,趁现在看清你的真面目,往后的日子,我们一点瓜葛也没有。

现在我在此宣布: 今日的我你不放在眼里,以后的我你铁定高攀不起。。。

这是你的损失~
你给我记住~

我会证明给你看Fion是你永远无法相比~

Friday, May 18, 2012

The one and only Guitar Goddess ♥ ORIANTHI PANAGARIS - Part 4 (final)

PART 4: MY DREAM CAME TRUE, SEEING GUITAR GODDESS ORIANTHI PANAGARIS IN PERSON!!!

READ PART 1, PART 2, PART 3 HERE!


Before I start, my 6th sense is telling me that I will be pretty much blown away by these awesome memories. Even recalling the details in my mind is about to make me cry. *no joke!*

Here goes…


After the non stop screaming and shouting and being extremely envy of my friends because they got to meet Orianthi (as mentioned in the previous post), soon there were announcements about Orianthi’s performance in Australia. OMG!!!! How unbelievable! I felt that God took pity on me and he then decided to fulfill my dream! Of course, the news spreaded first on Twitter. Fans were talking about it and I saw links flying all over on my timeline. Although I wasn't sure about it, I asked mom to get my friend to bring the CDs over here :D Brilliant!


As the date got nearer, I wanted a confirmation, I tweeted Orianthi and she replied! Awesome! She said "see ya there" when I told her I wanted to go to meet her at the airport! Perhaps you can imagine how hyped I was back then!!! I was jumping in joy, literally jumping in joy in my room x)


I posted this little note right in front of my study table so I could stare at it everyday! My friends really couldn't stand my craziness ==''' I waited desperately desperately desperately desperately desperately for that week to come. I was prepared to go to the airport to see her. I didn't plan attend her performance because she was just a guest for Michael Boulton. I WANT HER PERSONAL CONCERT! Only a guest, as a guitarist, for sure she didn't perform every single song and the freaking tickets were awfully expensive. Well, perhaps not for the locals, the cheapest one was 145Aussie dollars. Convert it to Malaysian Ringgit, you could've bought a VIP/Rock Zone ticket. (Last time the ticket I bought for Orianthi's concert was just RM170.)

The week that she's coming was no longer my holiday week. In fact, it's the first week for my second term. I was counting and guessing which day would Orianthi arrived in Melbourne. The concert here was on Friday and her Sydney stop had ended on Tuesday or Monday I suppose, so I somehow just jumped to conclusion that she would arrive here on Wednesday or the latest on Thursday for soundcheck. I was praying so hard that she's not going to arrive on Wednesday because my schedule starts at 9am and ended at 5.15pm, if she arrived on Wednesday then for sure it's GG for me :S However, later I found out that Wednesday was a public holiday. For that split second, I really felt that God was helping me out a lot. My 6th sense got triggered and it told me that Orianthi would arrive on Wednesday....


I went out to buy marker pens. Damn it, marker pens are so expensive here. 2 marker pens = 7Aussie dollar (the two on the left). WTH! In Malaysia, I can buy more than 5 with this price already! *Bang Head* Plus the original 2 marker pens that I already have in collection, total up 4 marker pens. Throughout that week, I was in a on-call-24-hour stage. I carried those 4 markers with me plus 2 Orianthi albums plus Michael Jackson's This Is It album with me, practically everywhere I go. Even to school.
My phone
iPod
iPad lock screen
iPad home screen
I was prepared that once she tweeted something about leaving for Melbourne then I would rush to the airport. For the past few days, my Malaysia Panagaris Ninja family and I were busy asking Orianthi which airline she was going to take and which exact date she would arrive, but she didn't go on Twitter as often as she used to be during that week. Not being discouraged, I still kept my hopes HIGH~~I was in an ORIANTHI FEVER MODE :p See my phone and my iPad and my iPod!

Tuesday went passed without any sign of her coming, she only tweeted she was having a great time  with her sister in Sydney. Wednesday, *heart breaking* still in Sydney. So now left Thursday, that night, I couldn't sleep, so nervous, I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to see her.

On Thursday morning, around 10am, when I was still in my literature lecture, suddenly she tweeted that she was going to the airport and heading for Melbourne. Damn...10am heading for the airport. If she's coming from somewhere further I wouldn't have to be so anxious, the thing was that she's coming from Sydney, which is only 1 and a half hour flight to Melbourne...NO NO NO...My heart sank because my class would only end at 12.30pm and from my school to the airport, I needed AT LEAST 40minutes.

Seriously felt like crying but then I convinced myself that I would definitely see her for sure as long as I kept my hopes high and my fingers crossed. 30minutes free time before my English class, I went to put on my makeup because I didn't wanna look like a piece of shit in front of my guitar goddess. Malaysia Ninjas were busy helping me to track which terminal would Orianthi come out from. And it's not just merely Malaysia Ninajas, even Australian fans were helping me out. The whole Twitter was in riot x) And then Orianthi tweeted something about eat berries and reading an inspiring book on the plane….*sigh* I couldn’t sit still throughout the entire English class.

I was (still am) thankful for my English teacher's support. Guess what?! He knew I was going to rush to the airport after class and he taught me how to get to the skybus station by tram and where to buy the tickets at the station and which terminal I should go. He even let me out of class 5 minutes earlier than the others so I could rush over as fast as I could. Honestly, I didn't dare to skip class in college because I didn't want my marks to be affected, if I was in Malaysia, I wouldn't care much about classes anymore. I ran like insane towards the tram stop and I had to change another tram.

I encountered a fat lady who was the most idiotic person in the entire Australia. She was big size enough to block nearly the entire narrow pathway. But heck, I know I am puny enough and I could just squeeze through the tiny gap in between her tummy and the tram. Damn her to the max, I went in front and she used her tummy to block my way; I went from the back, she used her fat ass to block my way. WTF! She later screamed at me and demanded a "Please" word from me. I gave her pissed off face and just said "excuse me" with a cold voice, no need to bother this kind of people, not worth my PRECIOUS time >;(

Hopped on the tram then skybus, soon I arrived at the airport. My friends told me that since she's coming over from Sydney, she wouldn't be coming out from the international terminal. The worst thing was that the domestic terminals are all separated by airlines. The Twitter riot continued and they finally the came up with the conclusion while I was in my English class - biggest possibility was Qantas. Arrived at the airport, there was no wifi. I stood at the Qantas terminal and just then there was a plane that landed, from Sydney. I waited with a loud pounding heart….A lot of blonde hair girls but no Orianthi. I asked a China tour guide and I told him about Orianthi’s schedule. He said most likely it was this terminal, I was correct.

After waiting for 30minutes, my friends texted me. So touched, they would sacrifice their phone credit and sms me :’) Orianthi tweeted that she just landed in Melbourne. They asked me to wait patiently at the carousel as Orianthi actually does pick up her things, herself, personally. I waited waited and waited but there was no sign of her. Coincidentally Jet Star was the other domestic airline which had an airplane landing at the same time as Qantas, and BOTH were from Sydney. Oh no….Jet Star’s terminal was upstairs. But I eventually sticked to wait at Qantas. Soon many people went off already and the carousel was empty. Still I didn’t see her. I started to panic. I went up to Jet Star still no Orianthi. It wouldn’t be possible to take 1 hour to walk out from the plane and to claim the luggage. Never before I was felt so helpless and hopeless in my entire life. I couldn’t do anything about it. What if she didn’t take Qantas? What if I just missed her? What if it’s not this airport? A thousand of what ifs popped into my head. I didn’t know what to do except for keep on waiting and searching both Qantas and Jet Star terminal non-stop.

image from Google.com
In total, I actually waited for nearly 3 hours, without eating anything for lunch. Yet, what I got in the end?? False hope…I didn’t see Orianthi TT Frankly speaking, I could hear my heart breaking inside already. All the effort that me and my friends put in had eventually turned into ash. This time I really wanted to cry my heart out, but I remembered I had eyeliner and it would be scary if I cried. I forced myself to hold back my tears. My thoughtful Twitter friends tried to comfort me. One of the things that made me super touched was my phone calls with Max and Peter. Peter actually called the airport to try if they would provide him any info about Orianthi’s flight but they turned him down. While I was on my way back in the skybus, Max called and told me many things which made my mood a slightly better. Both of them are such nice guys. Thank you ^^


Picture 1: Excited until I couldn’t sit still in the bus to airport
Picture 2: Face of going-to-hell
Picture 3: Forced myself to NOT lose hope because I BELIEVE I WILL SEE ORIANTHI

I emailed my English teacher and told him that I didn’t get to see Orianthi. He suggested another plan which was to wait for her to finish her show at the backstage door! I never had this idea before. Hotel and airport I did but I didn’t know this thing's effective. The next day during lunchtime, I went to see my English teacher and he told me his friend managed to meet his idol using this method and he even googled the plan of the Regent Theatre (the place where Orianthi was performing) for me. He told me to try either in the afternoon, 3 or 4pm which was the time for soundcheck or after the show. I decided to try out my luck once more. My friend, Narra offered to accompany me there after she finished her class.

Right after school, I put on my concealer, but this time without eyeliner and went to check out the venue. It’s my first time wandering around at Collins Street. I had never been there alone before. Following the Google Map, I made my way to the front of Regent Theatre.

I walked round and round and round, then to the back lane, then I saw a door, unlock, it says backstage door for Regent Theatre (or something like that)….THIS IS IT!!!! The door that I had been searching high and low for. OMG!!! Unlock?! Perhaps I could’ve just sneaked iN *hahaha…nope, just kidding, I didn’t want to be an intruder by any means*

I saw the backstage workers coming in and out from the door and I didn’t dare to go near it once I saw two people stood there guarding. As Narra came, we stood at the junction of the lane until those people were gone, then we waited in front of the door. Actually Narra only knew Orianthi from the photos which I put in my room and she wanted to see her in person to see how she looks like and also she said seeing a celebrity ain’t a normal thing so she wanted to experience LOL!

2 men came out of the door and this time I plucked up my courage and asked them, “Excuse me could you please help me to get Orianthi to sign my CDs?” Then they told me that she would be coming out from that door as soundcheck would finish in an hour’s time or so. OMG! This time I was so damn nervous. Much more nervous than any moments in my life, even exams, performances, competitions were no match for this. I waited and there were more people coming out from that particular door. Later on, a guy came out for a cigarette then I asked him the same thing again and he replied the same thing as the other men told me :p Not long after that, the orchestra band members started coming out. Funny thing was that some of them didn’t even know who’s Orianthi when I asked until I showed them her albums then only they told me that she was still in the middle of the soundcheck.

I didn’t care how much longer I had to wait. Even it’s waiting for another 12 hours, I would be willing to do so. Truly. Pity Narra because she ended up sitting on the floor, leaning against the wall at the corner with her coffee while I was prancing around. 2 men who were waiting for Michael Boulton came to have a little chit chat with me and one of them actually met Orianthi before and he showed me a picture of him with Orianthi in his camera.


I decided to calm myself down and tried to find something to do to distract myself since I still had to stand there waiting….so I passed my things to Narra and camwhored!!!!

TO MY SURPRISE, as soon as I finished camwhoring, I turned my head around. I saw…………..something that I had never expected. Or rather someone…..

Blonde long hair! Wearing a black fedora! Totally a perfect figure! GODDESS OF ALL TIME – ORIANTHI PANAGARIS walking the stairs towards the door!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD~ OH MY GOD~ OH MY GOD~ MY GODDESS WAS JUST RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Beside her was the guy who came out to have his cigarette. I never thought he’s the stage manager, he actually went to tell her that I was waiting for her. It’s too good to be true….I swear I could’ve just fainted at that split second. I rushed to Narra, got over the albums that she was holding and went to Orianthi. SHE HUGGED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Honestly, I could feel myself shaking as she wrapped her arms around me. Not that I was scared of her, but I was too nervous. She was (forever is) an angel to me. And her perfume smell was really nice. She hugged me and timidly I asked her “Orianthi, can you sign the CDs for me please?” She was such a sweet person, “Yeah sure!” she said with her goddess voice and  signed 3 of my albums. She even asked what’s my name so she could write it on the CDs. She actually said out my name, ”Fion, there you go.” I had never thought that my name sound good until Orianthi said it~~ From now onwards, I swear I will love my name! I told her I went to wait for her at the airport yesterday but now to be able to see her in person, I feel like it’s a dream. She kept on smiling at me and she even held my hands <3 <3 <3 Narra was still sitting at the corner watching us with wide-opened eyes and I had to signal her to come over x) So inhuman...

My first photo with Orianthi! I looked like a complete mess! :S
The other guys who were waiting for Michael Boulton also came to get autographs from Orianthi.  She hugged them as well, and me as well, another time <3 I purposely said in front of Orianthi, “Narra, meet my guitar goddess, Orianthi.” Orianthi gave out a small laugh and with a shy smile she continued signing for the guys. She asked us if we were going to attend the concert. (In real, none of us were going because those guys weren’t really interested in meeting Michael Boulton, they just wanted his autograph to complete their collection that’s all.) I didn’t know how to answer her, I didn’t want to let her feel that I was not supportive but I also didn’t want to lie to her. (How on earth could you lie to your guitar goddess, lighting would strike you for sure!) I told her, “Too bad I can’t make it tonight for the show, I’m so sorry. But can I bring my guitars to let you sign after the show? Will you come out from here after the show?” she said “Of course, I’ll see you tonight over here.” With her trademark aussie accent and smile. Luckily, she was alright with that and I quickly passed my iPad to Narra and asked her to take a photo of me and Orianthi together.

SELCA WITH ORIANTHI
However, I wasn’t quite satisfied with the photo. And I remembered what Sue Ee told me about taking selca with Orianthi would be awesome. So I asked Orianthi if I could take another picture with her. This time SELCA!!!! WOOHOOOO!!! I don’t think many fans get to do this with their idols.

I also offered to take a picture of Narra with Orianthi in return.

Orianthi didn’t get to stay outside with us for long because the stage manager said the soundcheck had not officially ended and she had to go inside. Saying goodbye to her and she hugged me again *3rd time OMG!* Once she entered the door, suddenly I remembered something. I opened the door, but didn’t dare to rush in. I stood at the door and asked if she could sign my iPad. The stage manager was looking at me with surprise and said, “You want Orianthi to sign your iPad?” Orianthi was laughing and she said “no problem” and got the pen from me and signed it. She said “nice to meet you, see you tonight.” Smiled, waved goodbye, and she went inside. I stood at the door until I couldn’t see her anymore.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE BEST MOMENTS IN MY LIFE EVER!!!!!!!!! I cant express fully about how I feel, the only thing that I kept on repeating on the way home was, “I can die in heaven already right now!” Narra laughed at me non stop. As expected, those pedestrians were looking at me but I was too blown away to give any damn about their stares x)





Outfit of that night. Peace shirt + Michael Jackson jacket + angel ring
Rushed back home, I gobbled up my dinner. At the dining table, I uploaded my selca with Orianthi to Facebook and Twitter. Haha! A lot of people commented "envy!" :p Immediately, I changed my profile picture :D Next thing was to shower, make up, choose my outfit and prepare my guitars. I finished showering and washing my hair very quickly and got Tiffany to help out on my eyeliner because I didn't have the patience to do things carefully and slowly anymore. Lately I had so much homework and I didn't really get to play my guitar, so they were cover with a little dust and also out of tune. I quickly grabbed wet tissues to clean them up and asked Alanis to come down to help me with tuning (I suck at it, need a darn long time).

I actually wanted to go to QV to buy Malaysia Old Town White Coffee for Orianthi so she could remember there's a Malaysian fan in Melbourne but Athira intelligently pointed out that she might not be able to bring that through the custom.


So eventually I made her a Peace necklace myself. Haha...actually I didn't really MAKE it, I just took out the pendant from a bracelet and took remove a pendant from the necklace and put them together. TAH DAH! Nice? Cute?

Necklace's in the little packet. Alanis is talented :D
There's the photo that I took at her KL concert. She's gorgeous!
Thankfully Alanis came to my room. She's very good at art and craft so she offered to help me make a nice packaging for Orianthi's present. When I took out a colour paper which I wanted to write a short note for her, Alanis stopped me. "So ugly if you were to put it that way. I make a nice one for you." So see this was the outcome! And I got to write lots of things to Orianthi. (Now seeing the photo, I really regret...Should have used normal pen instead of colour markers so I could write even more things :p) See the photo which I put on the card? Remember this? I mentioned in the Part 2 Orianthi story. I took this myself for goodness sake! A perfect shot right? I know *applause* xD

After getting the things done, it was nearly 9pm. Narra was running late, so I had to wait for her. I was already nervous like hell, I didn't want to miss Orianthi. The worst thing was the next tram from my hostel to city would only arrive in 20minutes time. And I needed to get the digital camera from Shueh Yin, I didn't want to use iPad's camera anymore because the quality's not really good, and her house's in the opposite direction from Regent Theater TT. In the end, I told Narra to get the camera from Shueh Yin and I carried 2 guitars to wait for Orianthi on my own. People stared at me but I didn't care...

Camwhore at the doorway to dream-come-true.
One of the guys waiting for Michael Boulton came up to me once I arrived there. "Hey, you really went back to bring your guitars?" He told me that Orianthi came out again after I went back to sign for some fans and sad case, he didn't get Boulton's autograph. Hence, he's still there waiting for another chance. Narra came with the camera and stood against the wall looking at me in hyped mode. I chatted with those guys about guitars and music and even about travelling. Both of them guessed I was only 15 or 16 years old, in fact they said "at most 15 or 16". When I told them, "No no...I'm officially 18", both of them screamed! After a while, Narra left for clubbing with her friends so I was alone. Had fun chatting with fans though ;)

I knew the concert ended as more more fans started to gather at the backstage door with us. Most of them couldn't help stealing glances at my guitars. I even heard someone saying, "Look, some crazy fan even brought guitars." (Proud of myself #PanagarisNinja FTW!) Most of them were old fans, as in not teenagers like me, so I assumed most of them were there for Boulton. Standing in front of me was a girl and my mind told me that she's waiting for Orianthi as well. So I asked her who's she after. Her reply was "Ori". I suspected this girl's a Twitter user and might be one of us. And I asked her what's her name. OMG! When she said her name's Bri, I got a shock. She's the girl who I chatted on Twitter. She initially said that her dad didn't allow her to wait at the exit door, that's why I didn't expect to see her. I told her "Oh hi, nice to meet you, I'm Fion, MJandOri4eva." That reminded her xD Another person who I promised to meet was Max. Finally got the chance to meet this dedicated guy fan! He was wearing an Orianthi T-shirt which he told me on the phone on the previous day and I met his wife too who complimented on my guitars hehe ^^. So happy to see them in person! Panagaris Ninjas really rock! 

Mikey and all the signed photos<3
ORIANTHI CAME OUT!!!!!!!!!!! I watched her dealing with the other fans and after she had autographed for them, I asked her if she could sign my guitars. "Yeah of course, you brought them here?" I handed her my electric guitar for her to sign. "Can someone help me with the guitar? I can't sign it like this." Mikey was too heavy and so it's quite hard to hold it with a hand and autographed at the same time, it's so polite of her to ask like this. Even if she didn't ask, I would help her immediately but she was quicker than my action :p Sorry Ori... :/
My guitar's valuable now!! NO WAY I WILL PUT IT ON AUCTION! TRUE FANS DON'T SELL!
When she was to sign on my acoustic guitar, she said she liked the Peace logo which I put on. I told her I made it myself and she said it's really nice. Originally she only signed her name on the guitar body, but I told her that there's such a big space and she could scribble anything she likes. But she said she didn't know what to draw, so I suggested, "how about Peace & Love?" (that's one of her favourite words to use!) Hurray!
After signing my guitars, I gave Orianthi her present: the card+the necklace. She was like, "Aww...thank you so much." I opened up for her and told her that I personally snapped that photo of her during her concert in Malaysia 3 years ago. She was quite surprised and I told her that I'm from Malaysia, now studying in Melbourne. Then she told me, "We (her own band) just played in Malaysia. It was crazy and fun." I also told her that my friends all waited for her at the airport and she also remembered that. How touched~

I look funny, unglam :/ LOOK AT ORIANTHI IT'S ENOUGH!!! 
Then fans took turns to take photos with Orianthi. I waited for them to be done again because I didn't want to be a selfish and inconsiderate fan. I asked for Bri's help to take a photo of me with Orianthi because I was too lazy to open up Shueh Yin's camera at that moment plus I was holding many things.
What's in Orianthi's hand?
Can see? A square thing...
Orianthi holding the gift that I gave her!!! I typically love this photo despite my hair's a mess ><
Me and Bri, I was checking if my guitars were still alright.
After that, I got Orianthi to sign my mini poster. And I heard people wow-ing when I pulled it out from my bag. When she was nearly done with us, the stage manager told her to go in to pack up her things. I didn't really dare to ask any favour from Orianthi anymore but I didn't wanna regret myself, so I asked her IF she had enough time to sign some photos before she headed in. She told me that the manager wanted her to go in to pack up her things that's why she had to leave but she also told me that she would finish giving autographs to everyone there (How thoughtful my goddess was, still is anyway, that's what a goddess is about <3). "I should've got you a Starbucks, Ori."

*Laughs* "Aww...it's okay." (I did mention Orianthi's cute, right?)

Don't go in Ori...PLEASE TT
Finally, the moment that I had to face was here. It would be forever goodbye once she entered the door. I felt scared. I didn't want her to leave so fast because I don't know when I will get to see her again.  Before she went it, she hugged me and told me to take good care in Melbourne :') She wished all of us goodnight, waved goodbye and went inside. My feelings were complex - happy and sad at the same time. Max and Bri went back after Orianthi went inside but the other fans were still waiting. They were all staring at me as I put my guitars into their bags.

Orianthi and her luggage! She had 2 fedora hats.
Orianthi talking to the band members. 
I didn't feel like going home yet. The fans were still there and I decided to wait. Perhaps Orianthi would come out from that door again. I wanted to say an official goodbye to her. (Believe it or not, I am crying now as I write the "official goodbye" words. No joke.) A guy came out and asked the people who were they waiting for and there came their bad news - Boulton had left the venue right after the show, from the other exit which none of them had discovered. Just then, all of them left the place. I was wondering if I should stay or go and suddenly I saw Orianthi at the bottom of the stairs. She was preparing to leave and was talking to the other band members. I stood there and looked at her. Admiring my goddess who's a few feet away from me. She saw me and I waved at her. She smiled and waved back :3
Final picture with Orianthi. 
Soon she came up the stairs, taking her own luggage bag. I helped her at the door and I timidly asked her if I could take another photo with her because I didn't like the quality of the one that I took with her at noon. Despite it's so late, she was willing to do so. "No problem." She came closer to me as I hold up my iPad, but the place was too dark. Orianthi told me to stand below the lights but still it was too dark and in the end she told me to turn to face the lights instead of standing under them. It worked! My goddess's good at everything, including camwhoring~

She wished me goodnight and goodbye and told me to take good care as she reached for her luggage bag. She even bothered to ask me how I was going home (It's already around 11.15pm). I asked her if she's going home the next day.
O: We have the last show in Hobart tomorrow then I will go back home.
F: Hobart? Where is it?
O: Oh...Hobart is somewhere in Tasmania, that's our last show.
F: After Hobart you will go back home, which home? Adelaide or US?
O: I'm going back to Adelaide.
F: Ori, when's the FIRE album coming out? We are so excited for it already. The EP's really amazing.
O: Somewhere around next month.
F: So soon? As it hitting the stores? In hard copy?
O: Yeah, next month I suppose. 

As we walked, soon she reached the van that was waiting for her. I knew it's time for the real goodbye to come. My heart was bleeding inside. But I tried my very best to hide my pain. Very naturally, we said goodbye to each other. I also didn't tag along anymore further. The crew was waiting for her in the van.
F: Orianthi, we will definitely buy FIRE album at once. Have fun at tomorrow's show and enjoy yourself at home, we will miss you a lot.
O: You take care too in Melbourne. I'll see you soon. Goodnight. 
F: Goodnight and take care, I love you. (Finally I gathered all my courage to tell her those 3 words :*)
O: Take care and goodnight to you. Bye.

As the worker helped her to put her luggage at the back of the van, I realised Orianthi was still looking at my direction. I waved and smiled at her. She also waved back and wished me goodnight again. Before she disappeared into the car, I called out to her, "Thank you Orianthi for everything. For making my dream come true. Hope to see you soon." 

"You take care and goodnight." She smiled and waved.....

That's the end. I went back home with tears rolling in my eyes. THAT'S THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE EVER. 27th APRIL 2012 FRIDAY.

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I fulfilled my dream at last. Since the day my eyes laid on her, I told myself that someday I would definitely meet her. That someday ain't just a dream, I promised myself that I would make it a reality. Now, I did it. I know I wrote thousands of words above but....seriously, all those words are not enough to express what I truly feel inside. Very complex. 

Orianthi has always been a goddess to me. I look up to her more than I can explain in words. Whenever people ask me about Orianthi, I will talk a mountain of things about her. BUT, those are actually just 45% of what she means to me, another 55% I don't know how to put into words. She's so perfect, too angelic, too goddess. I don't have to tell anybody, as long as I know it perfectly myself, that's all. I am sure REAL Panagaris Ninjas will know what I am talking about and Orianthi knows that we fans always love her. These are the only things that are important. Nuff said. 

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That night while I was looking at her through the door, she's actually just a short distance away from me, however I felt that she's like a shining star in way too high up in the sky. I could only watch her and love her from far. A goddess. There are no other words to describe her anymore. She's perfect and that's why being able to see her in person, to me, it's like too good to be true. Of all these years, from listening to her songs, watching her videos to learning and playing her songs on guitar...whenever I do these things the only thing that's in my mind is Orianthi! One word. She has given me so much inspiration in the things I do. I look up to her not merely because she is pretty and also not just her guitar skills. I admire her, I idolize her, I love her, I worship her for everything she does. In conclusion, I love her for being the one and only ORIANTHI PENNY PANAGARIS.
One thing I have to clarify here. People who commented "lucky you" on my selca with Orianthi, I want to pinpoint that I am not lucky at all. Don't jump to conclusion, continue reading PLEASE:-
I cannot be considered as lucky because I met Orianthi, I worked really hard for it. It's not that I bumped into her in the streets or anything. I put in a lot of effort to achieve my dream. The correct statement should be:
I AM LUCKY BECAUSE MY GODDESS IS ORIANTHI PANAGARIS.

Anyone can meet their idols if they purposely wait for them at certain venues. However, it's not necessary their idols would bother them. Orianthi is different from any of them. She is so friendly, so kind, so down-to-earth, so humble and so polite. Despite the fact that she's one of the best guitarists in the world, there's no sign of arrogant in her at all. That's why I am lucky. My goddess is her for crying out loud. I am lucky because Orianthi entered my life. I am lucky because Orianthi is an inspiring person. I am lucky because I am a die-hard Orianthi fan~!
 I am blessed to have Orianthi as an important person in my life.

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Finally this series is going to end. This is the final part. My meeting with Orianthi in real life.

So much thanks to everyone who contributed in helping my fulfill my dream:-

Wanroa
Sharifah
Sue Ee
Meia
Athira
Peter
Jerry
Max-special thanks for the photos :D
Bri
Narra
Alanis
(Did I miss out anyone?)

Please note that the list is not in particular order, don't be jealous among each other HAHA! :p
HUGE THANK YOU to my English teacher, CHRISTOPHER HEATH. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have had the chance to meet Orianthi. None of these would come true. Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you so much.

MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL>>>> THANK YOU ORIANTHI PANAGARIS for being you. For being my goddess. For existing in my life. Thank you for every single thing. I love you forever.

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Orianthi really did tell me it's going to be in the stores next month, which was suppose to be in May. However, she announce the delay on her official Twitter already. Good things are worth waiting, right? That's why I certainly don't mind...I am prepared to rush for the stores at once when it's officially released.



Here's a sneek peek of the making of the insanely amazing and groundbreaking FIRE ALBUM!!

Orianthi's latest collaboration with TheFairChilds - HIGH.
This song is so touching. I am writing this blog post with this song on replay. It made me cry at some parts. With my thoughts, with the words that I am writing, with Orianthi's guitar solo, with TheFairChilds's singing.....My tear glands have been triggered~~ GO WATCH IT RIGHT NOW!

Special add ons:


1) This is how the Orianthi corner in my room looks like right now. 



2) My current iPad lock screen and home screen backgrounds.


3) My current mobile phone background. 



4) Thanks to Max. This is the photo from that night. 


5) Apparently, show off time!!!!!

ps: I don't dare to touch my guitars anymore because I'm afraid that the signatures will come off....ROCKERS out there, can someone PLEASE tell me what is the most effective, practical and cheap way to preserve it, to keep it in perfect condition?? Thank you.


Exactly 3 weeks since I met Orianthi and now this whole Orianthi series is born. <3 <3 Just think I shall point it out...hehe :D
Damn long winded, I know....Anyone wants me to write a book or novel about Orianthi?? Feel free to contact me x)

Hope you like it~

Peace and Love,
Fion
xoxo

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

The one and only Guitar Goddess ♥ ORIANTHI PANAGARIS - Part 3

 PART 3: ORIANTHI AS IDOL, AS FRIEND & PANAGARIS NINJAS' FRIENDSHIP

READ PART 1 and PART 2!

Back from the concert, of course, the very best day of my life. Coming up next was the endless bragging to my friends about how amazing Orianthi was (still is anyway). By that time, it was Orianthi's new album's releasing day. BELIEVE 2 hit the stores~! So excited because if we got it from Speedy, then we would be able to get guitar picks with Orianthi's photo on it. Picking up the guitar picks from the company was a big trouble: couldn't collect the picks upon purchasing the album, instead had to go FAR FAR away to collect them, and that's in Kuala Lumpur :/ Got my mom to buy for me when she went down for business trip. She nagged a little because it was raining and I got her to be drenched in the rain when collecting the picks. (Awww...i'm sorry and THANKS mom!)


My Orianthi fever got even more serious after I got back from the concert. My Orianthi's collection expanded. See the pictures~


My dream guitar plus Orianthi's inspiring words which I copied from a magazine.



And I also crystallized my guitars.....so inspired by Orianthi. This is because Orianthi likes shining things. So for electric guitar I named it after Michael Jackson. Originally wanted to name it Mike but then it sounds too human, so I ended up calling it Mikey. The name for my acoustic guitar is because Orianthi likes to say "Peace and Love" but I think calling it "Love" is quite normal and not suitable in some ways. I ended up calling my acoustic guitar Peace!





I even have photo frames with Orianthi's photos in my room!!


I started using Twitter more and more, until now it has already become a habit for me to check Twitter every single day. (HEHE ^^ You can follow me
right here!)
On the other hand, many thanks to Orianthi, I got a chance to meet great friends, who are Orianthi's fans (aka Panagaris Ninjas). I met quite a number of good friends on Twitter, but I am typically close to the Malaysian ones. The first person I got to know was Athira because she was standing next next to me at the rock zone and then there's Sue Ee. These 2 are the fans who I got to know at the earlier stage. Then through them I got to know Meia, who I never met in real life up till now.

Zillion thanks to them because I got to become one of the admins of ORIANTHI MALAYSIA on Facebook. (Click
here to like the page, not necessary restricted to Malaysian fans, it's for ANYONE, as long as you love Orianthi, join us :D) Not forgetting, John, the guy I met when waiting for the gates to be opened during the concert, somehow he ended up being my "brother" hehe ^^ Great bro indeed. In fact, much better than my real god-brother who doesn't care much or bother to keep in touch with me. Had a great time chatting with the other Ninjas on Facebook and on Twitter.
We planned to meet up during the holidays but eventually only me and Sue Ee met up in her house to play guitar for a while. First time meeting up after talking for so long on social networks. I admit it was awkward indeed, but I (don't know what's her opinion) enjoyed playing guitar with her. She has a pretty red guitar <3 Until now, I haven't had the chance to meet Athira, Meia and John at all..[Hey ninjas, let's catch up when I go back ok? No escaping allowed :p]

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As I said since the Orianthi fever went out of control, I became more and more devoted to music and Orianthi day by day. I forgot how did it happen....There's one day I told my friend, Cassandra (at that time she was just like a normal friend, not as close as now) that I wanted to write a song for Orianthi. Being super duper efficient, she handed me an A4 paper with the lyrics the next morning. I really salute her~ I couldn't believe that there's actually a friend who knows how to do this kind of thing and also has interests in this. After altering altering and altering for nearly a hundred times, at last, the final piece came out. BUT, it was just the lyrics. Both of us couldn't compose a melody for it......So the final paper ended up in my folder for ages. Until, one day when I was studying, the melody popped into my mind. I started humming it repeatedly and I hummed it to Cassandra the next day. That's considered as 80% completed??? Haha....we are typical procrastinating people....

On the other hand, I got my first reply from Orianthi on Twitter. I had been tweeting her a lot and she finally replied to me. What's more?! 3 replies in one row! WHEE~~~ Photo as proof!
 

That time was nearly Orianthi's 26 birthday (21 January 2011) and I planned to finish up that song as her birthday present. The next problem was the guitar chords....Dreadful enough for such an amateur like me :/ I didn't know how to play by ear at all back then. However, lucky me, when I was strumming away "Baby"  by Justin Bieber on my acoustic guitar, unconsciously, I hummed the song while strumming. BINGO~! They fitted perfectly. The following thing was beyond insane. It's impossible for me to record the song to a disc and mail it to Orianthi, so I (thick skin-ly) made a cover of that song and posted it to youtube (the one posted below).

BEFORE WATCHING:-
"Oh my gosh...now only I realize how idiotic I looked AND sounded...I recommend you NOT TO CLICK ON IT, AT YOUR OWN RISK....I won't sponsor you any insurance in advance...Sorry about that Haha!"

The lyrics are as below:

I don't know how you do it
But you make me move
I don't know why you make me
Feel like I could touch the stars above
The way you strum
The way you shred
The recipe to like you is 
To love the way you are

[chorus]

When you move
When you do what you do
The world just spins around you
Screams and shouts are not enough
To tell what you mean to me
You are my inspiration 
I just love the way you are

It doesn't matter 
What people say about you
I believe you will never
Ever let us down
When you're on stage
Showing your skills
You prove to be a queen
And that's why I love the way you are 

[chorus]

(bridge)
You are a rose among the thorns
Through the ups and downs
A guitar goddess is born with no parallel

[chorus]


Frankly speaking, I really really really sounded bad in the video, I prefer to JUST LOOK AT THE LYRICS ...Me and Cassandra were very satisfied with the completed lyrics, so after posting it, the next thing was to keep our fingers crossed and wait for Orianthi's personal reply/comment on that.



I tweeted her and.......SHE REPLIED!! And eventually she commented on the Youtube video as well. Mission accomplished!!!


The next big thing, Orianthi's following me on Twitter. On the 15th of March 2011. This is the screenshot of my Twitter notification email, until now I still don't want to delete. Gonna keep this forever <3 <3 After that, she replied me several times. Having Orianthi to reply fan tweets I feel that she is an idol, at the same time, she is also like a far away friend for all of us.
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Time flies..no new album in 2011. Then suddenly, after I had left Malaysia for Melbourne for a month, there's this news-ORIANTHI GOING TO MALAYSIA!!!!


Disastrous! Not fair! All of my Malaysia Panagaris Ninja friends planned to go the airport to see Orianthi!!! I couldn't control myself...Jumping up and down and called back to Malaysia to complain to my best pal at night.....

So bad of them kept on tweeting me about their plans to meet Orianthi at the airport and making me more and more frustrated as the day got closer. And it was then I got to know Uno Roa and
Sharifah.

Advance thanks to Uno Roa who offered to give me an Orianthi T-shirt which she designed herself and helped me get Orianthi to sign. You know what....I was really really touched. These so-called friends, I actually never seen most of them before, but the way they treated (still treating) me, it's like we are extremely close friends. In truth, they absolutely don't have any obligation to help me at all, but then they offered automatically without me asking. Unfortunately the plan failed, BUT I was, still am grateful for everything. Thankful for the help they offered, thankful for sharing the photos with me, thankful for counting me as one of their members even though I'm not in Malaysia with them, and also thankful for their permission for me to post their photos with Orianthi here (I think they allowed is because they want me to show off on behalf of them haha).





And also, after the photos were released then through commenting on Facebook, I got to know Jerry, which another guy who calls me "sis"....Haha....Why Malaysia guy Panagaris Ninjas like to make me their little sister?!?! o.O Am I that young looking? 







Orianthi's soundcheck session and performance at KL Twin Towers <3 Seeing all these pictures, my endless jealousy's starting again...they met Orianthi...everyone fulfilled their dream...except me TT
Anyway, thanks BROs!! :D and also thanks SISTAs! It's insanely awesome to know you all <3 <3 I believe someday it'll be my turn, SOON!


Peace and love, Fion xx

ps: THANKS again for lending me the photos my Malaysia Panagaris Ninja family!

[To be continued Part 4-finale: MY DREAM CAME TRUE, SEEING GUITAR GODDESS ORIANTHI PANAGARIS IN PERSON!]

Stay tuned!

ORIANTHI FANS....Feel free to make friends with me, I love meeting Panagaris Ninjas from all over the world.

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My twitter: @MJandOri4eva

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