Friday, January 20, 2012

Music Rocks!

Just finished watching Mary Stayed Out All Night yesterday. Initially, I just watched it because Jang Keun-Suk's in it (the main actor, on the right, the guy with the guitar). Never had I thought before this drama would have such a great impact on me. Now I am in total confusion. Not about the storyline of the drama, but........It's something really really hard for me to explain. So PLEASE bear with me if there are any nonsensical random things that I am going to crap about below.

What does the word "music" mean to you?
And what does the word "dreams" mean to you?

I bet everyone has heard about the quote "Living your dream to the fullest". Some of you may say it's cliche, but what is the true meaning behind that saying? I am desperate to know.

Jang Keun Suk's character in this drama inspired me a lot. His role is a free-spirited indie singer named Kang Wu Kyul. With a charming face and talent like no other, he gains popularity as he works as a lead vocalist and guitarist in a rock band or an underground band. He is a chic and lives a carefree bohemian lifestyle. He doesn't talk much and all he wants in his life is to make music. And he doesn't give a damn about success or fortune. [ps: Alright, finally I have found a way to get into my topic.]


Nowadays, many people learn musical instruments. Parents send their child/children for music lessons since young. That's why in this era, nearly everyone can play at least one type of music instrument. The problem is....how many among this group really love music? How many take music as part of their lives? Who's willing to seriously devote themselves to music? I have many friends who learn music, majority of them learn piano and they had already finished Grade 8 and some even Diploma. However to me, I never envy any of them, even I am a 200% amateur in the music field. Because to me, the essential of music is missing in them. I know I have no right to judge anybody right here, but I simply can't understand. Many of them told me that they've been learning music since young and it has become a habit for them to spend a few hours sitting in front of their pianos praticing their exam pieces every single day. Some told me that their parents wanted them to pick up the skill because of the certificates which they could get from those examinations. Some told me that they have never been touching piano anymore after they finished their highest grade examinations. And some even told me that they have never played any other songs except for their exam pieces. My friend who finished Diploma in her piano when she was 16, now abandoned her piano in the corner of her house and she's telling me that she can hardly play any songs right now. Since when music was invented for the sake of examinations and certificates? What's the real meaning of music in this case?


The reason why the character Kang Wu Kyul catches my heart is because this guy is someone who's living his dream. He doesn't care about what other people think of him, no matter how hard life can be, he never changes his own style in order to match the liking of the entertainment companies and he remains loyal to his other band members. He refuses to have contracts with entertainment companies as long as they don't allow his other band members to be involved or let them do their own style of music. To him, a band is a band, a band goes through everything together, be it good or bad, band members shall stick together at all times. No matter how bad life is, he never changes his own concept. To him, music is everything, music is life.


Dreams and reality...which one should we choose? Is it necessary to face the reality and let your dreams slip away? The world is cruel. Many people are saying that we can't live our dreams because they are unreal, they are not dependable, they cannot bring you fortune in life. The world now has turned into a world that talks only about fame and fortune.

I have never mentioned to anyone before in my life, but I really really really look up to musicians, especially those underground bands. They don't care what people think of them, all they want is to make their own music, to live their dreams for music. Even though they don't get the society's recognition and they don't make great fortune, they are always determined in their dreams, their passion. It takes a lot a lot a lot of courage to live this kind of life. But I guess, surely they find happiness in whatever they are doing despite the fact that people always cast them a weird kind of look, it doesn't matter to them. The only thing that matters is music. Why must people look down on them?

What I wanna say is that.....Don't be judgemental. WE ONLY LIVE ONCE. Why can't we just follow our heart and live the life that we want? Why must we deal with the reality? Why can't we have our rights to mind our own business? Why must we care about what people have to say about the decisions that we make in our lives. And just because we only have 1 chance to live, shouldn't we just chase after the things that we want to achieve in our lives? And who are you to point your finger at others saying that they are going the wrong way? Everybody has their own dreams, as long as it's legal, just go for it.


For those peeps out there who love music,

Making decisions are one of the most important things to do in life. If you really wanna pursue in music, pluck up the courage and just go for it. Give it your best and never regret. Even if you failed eventually, it's alright, at least, you've once obeyed your heart. Don't hide your dreams, don't let anyone bring you down.

IF THEY DIDN'T BELIEVE IN THEIR DREAMS BACK THEN.....
Michael Jackson wouldn't be the King Of Pop;
Orianthi Panagaris wouldn't be the Guitar Goddess;
Cn Blue wouldn't be the best rock band;
Jang Keun Suk wouldn't be the Asia Prince;
Christina Grimmie wouldn't skyrocket to fame on Youtube.

Haha..I apologize because these people are MY idols, of course any of your idols did the same thing as well. They wouldn't be where they are or who they are today if they believe in themselves. The most important thing: Never lose confidence in yourself. Always remember that. If you don't believe in yourself, who will?

Just because some aren't internationally famous or making mountains of fortune, it doesn't mean that your music sucks. Frankly speaking, I personally think that there are NO music that sucks in this universe, there are only people who don't know how to appreciate every piece of music on earth.

Live your dream and you'll never know when miracles may happen!

MUSIC RAWKS!!

ps 1: Many thanks to my guitar teacher, Alex Akaru Sachi. I've never thought of knowing a real talented musician in my life. Thanks for all the inspirations and teachings Alex :) And also for showing me how important music is in my life. So..... I'm dedicating this entire post to you. Keep rocking!
ps 2: I don't mean to be offensive in any ways, this is just my PERSONAL thoughts, that's all x)

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Packing up is NOT easy

Finally, I am starting to pack my luggage. Since I am taking Air Asia, the luggage's limit is only 30kgs. Initially I thought I wouldn't be facing any problems while packing my things because I am quite a pratical person (well, in some ways only...) so I assumed that I wouldn't need to pack unnecessary things. However....fate had it otherwise....


Nearly everyone's telling me to pack as much as I can. Australia's things are much expensive than Malaysia's things. That's why right now I am having a headache. Plus, during packing, there are lots of things to buy. I am extremely sorry for my mom's wallet and credit cards. She paid for my college's tuition fee, hostel rental fee and bought me a laptop, IN A MONTH'S TIME...I'm super duper sorry mom :/

I had given up the idea of buying a new luggage bag. The main point was and still is to safe up unnecessary expenses. But, I am thinking of buying a new school bag. Mom had this idea of giving me a laptop bag to use as a normal school bag. OMG! I don't want a laptop bag because it is quite heavy itself even I haven't put anything into it. My original idea was to bring along my old school bag which I used in my last year of high school but some of the white parts had turned dirty and there's no way I can clear off the dirt.

Alright...now it's time to take a peep at my shopping list.



1. Most important of all - sanitary pads
Seriously...I am not kidding at all. All my friends are packing this. Everyone's advising me to pack them. A year's supply if I won't be coming back to Malaysia. These kind of things in Australia are very expensive. Put it this way then, if I am not mistaken, 2 years ago when I went there I saw that these things are nearly the same price as Malaysia's, but theirs were in Aussie dollars. Woah...insanely pricey to the max!

(ps: I don't care if it's awkward enough to talk about this issue openly on my blog, I just think it's the no.1 of the list. At least, I am not showing the pictures. They are in the green recycle bag there :p And I'm bringing the coffee mug that my juniors gave me last year during PKK's farewell!)

2. Instant noodles
Aussie's instant noodles are rather much expensive than Malaysia's. But, because my mom doesn't allow me to eat too much instant noodles, I'm only bringing 2 packs of 5-in-1s there. I have to admit, instant noodles are convenient but not good for health, so I absolutely have nothing against it.



3. Stationeries
No explanations needed, it's all because of the prices again. I am definitely not going to spend a whole lot bunch of EXTRA money on stationeries and I doubt Aussie will have the brands that I want. I am madly particular with my stationeries :p So I bought a bunch of highlighters, pens and even puncher and staplers. I didn't have to buy erasers and pencil leads because I still have a lot in my cupboard, let's hope they can last me for a year if my estimations are correct.



4. Laptop

Of course, everyone needs a laptop as they proceed to college. I bought a Toshiba Satellite L745 Pearl White one. Loving it to the max~Is my desktop background cute?!?! :D


5. Headphones
Life sucks without headphones. I can't possibly think back how did I manage to survive before I bought my headphones. I had one last time but its cable broke and I bought back exactly the same one and crystalised it the same way as well.

6. Hairdryer
Not going to buy this thing there. School's starting the next day once I arrive and there's no time for me to go shopping for this kind of thing. Furthermore, I won't dare to think about the price.

7. Skin care
Actually this is not necessary. I bought a facial cleanser there once and it wasn't that expensive. Around Rm20, I got a Dove Facial Scrub which was quite reasonable. I packed Hada Labo's facial cleanser and toner and a Loreal moisturizer that's all. Am still thinking should I buy a facial mask from Skin food and a black head scrub O.o


Right now, the luggage is still left on the floor in my store room. Hah! The instant noodles and others are lying on the floor as well. I have no intention to pack them any time soon, maybe let me slack till Chinese New Year's really near then I have no way but to clear the house :p

Of course, I am so not forgetting Mikey's going to be part of my luggage as well. Will bring along MJ's This Is It, all my celebrities photos so I can stick them on my wall, Heartstrings, You're Beautiful, Mary Stayed Out All Night and We Got Married DVD! Peace will meet me there after 3 weeks :S

Good news! My whole series of 'Mary Stayed Out All Night' is coming home! I can spend the next few days watching my Sukkie oppa :D

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

One more month left


Oh my god...Exactly one month left till my flight to Melbourne. I'm so freaking used to all these slacking days: blasting music, watching dramas, playing guitar and keyboard, singing, reading story books and blogs, Facebook-ing, Youtube-ing, shopping and everything that has absolutely nothing to do with studying. What a great life I have here! Totally stress free and seem to me I'm having all the time that I want in this world. Okay, maybe not quite, because to me, I still think that 24hours a day is way too short for me to enjoy myself. But come to think of it, thank goodness I'm not a sleepy-head or else I would've wasted longer time snuggling in my bed.

First it was Jia Ming who went to the airport. Then, it was my darling Dwaeji Tokki (aka Wan Fen). Finally, it's going to be my turn. Honestly, I am not really afraid of going, but I just don't feel like leaving my room and my keyboard, that's the worst thing ever. I love my room to the max. How much time in my life have I been spending inside it and how much effort I put into decorating it until my friends envy me for having such a cool room.

I will be bringing Mikey (my electric guitar) with me to Melbourne, and leaving Peace (my acoustic guitar) and Dreamx (my Korg keyboard) behind in my room. Luckily mom promised to bring Peace for me when she goes to visit me in Melbourne in March, or else I would cry! The problem is I'm going to be staying in a dorm, 2 person in a room and it's impossible for Dreamx to fit in. And the other thing is all my Michael Jackson collection must be left behind in my room as well, they can't tag along with me. All the posters in my room will remain in their own places, and I am thinking of taking down those photos that I have on my wall and in my closet, hopefully my roommate won't mind me putting them up. I'll go insane if I don't get to bring photos of Michael Jackson, Orianthi, Jung Yong Hwa, Christina Grimmie and Jang Keun Suk.....I'm not going to care, now my sixth sense is telling me that I'm going to meet a really nice roommate. I'm not an evil person, so I suppose there's no worry of karma getting me in this kind of way :p

So...one more month until I arrive in a brand new world. Everything's a new start. No more calling my friends to chat up to an hour when I'm alone, no more depending on my mom, no more driving around the place, no more shopping, no more Youtube (Internet tends to be expensive in Aussie), no more being insane about my idols......In short: NO MORE SLACKING. 12th February 2012, I am going to arrive in Melbourne, and this is the first time I'm on my own on my birthday, literally alone on my 18th birthday. My first time away from home alone. And school starts the next day. Let's see how busy a college life will be....I'll take everything as it comes. I've come really far: preschool, primary school, high school and now college is just one step away from me. To be precise, approximately 30 days.

Fortunately, I am born as a single child in my family. Being home alone without anyone to talk to for 4 days ain't a problem for me. I find solace in MUSIC. I'm really grateful for that, as long as music exist, I can live, no matter how hard the situation is, when's there's music, there's no problem at all. That's one of the reasons why I am so damn obsess with my idols. They are the cure to every single obstacle. You can go ahead and oppose this statement of mine, you can say I'm just an ordinary kiddy-minded teenage girl who's STILL so unbelievably immature, BUT....at least to me, music is everything. I'm mentally prepared for the future Melbourne life to come, nothing to be afraid of, I have music to accompany me all the time.

People can do it, so can I. I'm keeping my head up. I'm not going to freak out. I am not going to cry myself to sleep under my blanket. I will make my family proud, I will make my mom know that I'm a blue chip, an investment which is worth to make.

This is the start of my dream, the start of my adventure!!!

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

TINY surprise

Giving and receiving..which one do you prefer? Well, in real life, it's actually a two-way thing..If you don't give, you won't receive. If you are generous, people will be generous to you as well. It's something like a karma, some kind of a cycle of life I guess.

I don't really know when did I start to enjoy preparing gifts for people, be it a random surprise or someone's birthday. I usually don't go for expensive presents because to me, it's the heart that matters. The sincerity in oneself. That's the most important thing ever. A present won't mean anything at all if you don't put your heart into preparing it. Don't see it as a responsibility, I rather don't buy if that's the case. Forcing doesn't bring happiness ya know?!

Seeing people's reactions are one of the most wonderful things in this world, especially those "oh my god", "my gosh" and all those screaming and shouting....seriously, they are plain awesome. It's that kind of feeling as if you've given people happiness and they are giving you back the same happiness as well.

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Today is my friend's (or so called junior) birthday. 4th of January. Frankly speaking, we have never been super duper close friends because she's younger than me by a year. The only chances for us to meet up were during our Girl Guides meetings, but since I had just graduated from high school and I will be off for Melbourne next month, there won't be many chances left for us to meet up. At least not as easy as last time when she ambushed my class and made fun of my name in front of my class and drove me insane! Kinda hated her during those times because she really got me on my nerves..LMAO! x)

I am a weird person in my own way. I don't really like people who ask for birthday presents from me. Because I seriously don't have that kind of obligation to give you presents if I don't feel like it, right?! This FRAND of mine, wrote on my memory diary in brackets beside her date of birth "Rmb my present!!"... If it's for the other people, I wouldn't give a damn about it.

Fate had it otherwise though, once I saw that line that she wrote, I straight away decided I wanted to get this crazy girl a gift. And there's only one idea that popped into my mind: A guitar pick necklace. Random much I know~

Reason 1:
During last year's Girl Guides Orientation, when this friend of mine arrived at my Kim Test station (I was the stationer there), she told me that she liked the red guitar pick necklace which I was wearing. At that time, I just assumed that she came up with that statement just to make me happy so I wouldn't be "mean" to her in the game x)

Reason 2:
This frand wrote that her favourite colours are red, black and white in my memory diary. The funny thing is that she really did made an effort to emphasize that her most favourite colour is red (I suppose) cause she purposely used a red pen to write the 'Red' word and the 'black' and 'white' words in black ink. So cute....hehe...that's why I noticed :p

To avoid my mom's attention, I got away from her in Gurney Plaza with the excuse of going to Popular to look for something and then I sneaked into the music store beside Popular. I seriously ransacked the entire guitar pick shelf with my cousin looking for a nice looking red pick. I found NONE! Extremely frustrating...I spent approximately 10minutes digging for a pick. Never in my life I spent so much time looking for a guitar pick xP Eventually I bugged the shop assistant and FORCED him to bring out every single guitar pick that he could find in the shop. Awesome not?! In the end, he, with a very innocent and pity looking face went to search in his cabinets and brought out 3 boxes of guitar picks. YAY! FINALLY found a red one. Nice looking, according to my personal taste~!

The next thing was to drill a hole to make it into a pendant. I had an appointment for my medical checkup at Adventist Hospital's Wellness Centre. I know this may seem a bit idiotic because I brought along the guitar pick and my Girl Guide's cutlery. I hate waiting with absolutely nothing to do at all. So instead of sitting there looking dumb, I used my already-expired Jusco member card as a coaster for the guitar pick so I wouldn't end up "drilling" my skin. Muakaka! Another awesome idea huh?!

I went out with my friends until 10pm so the guitar pick was kept in my purse for the rest of the day. Thank you so much for my dunno-if-i-shall-call-it-accurate-or-not sixth sense, I texted my friend and asked her if she's going to Gurney after school because I didn't know how long I shall be keeping that thingy before I get to meet her :/ And that would be extremely belated birthday gift. Surprisingly, she said she would be going the next day! Kewl! I then made up a white lie asking her to meet up with me in Gurney Plaza as there's something that I needed her to pass to the other friend of mine.

After changing into my pajamas, I quietly crept into my store room and sneaked a stack of letter pads and a cartoon envelope into my room. I 2 pieces of crap but I tore it off because the ink had smeared all over the paper. I decided to recopy everything but I heard my mom coming out from her room. It was 12am already and there's no way I could get away from my mom because to her, it's WAY past my bedtime :S I switched off the lights and hid everything under my pillow. With the aid of my handphone torchlight, I managed to recopy those crap that I wrote and extended the length to 4 pages. Finally settled everything in the dark, under my blanket but I didn't get to walk out from my room to wash my hands as I didn't want to be caught washing off pen smears and liquid paper on my hands. And what explanation should I invent? So...I slept with those stuffs xD

I arrived late at Gurney the next day. Mom gave me a "great" surprise. She made me turn all the way back home from Tesco cause she left her purse at home. There's no way she could drive back home after dropping me. She had no license, money and IC! Originally I promised my friend to meet her at 11am, now I had to change 12pm. Haiz~~

I went straight for the directory because I didn't know where Paddington Pancake House was. Thank goodness there were the other Girl Guides peeps with my friend, consider as my ex-juniors, or else it would be really awkward for me to walk in just like that :p

Right, they were celebrating with her. So my friend was like, "Did you ask KimKhyi what class she's in?" I dug out her gift from my bag and gave it to her. "Actually, it's not for KimKhyi, it's for you!"

"You...another one...!"

I guess I got her by surprise there...Haha! But I couldn't believe that she fell for my trick. She didn't suspect me at all. It's cute and creative for Yan Jing to get my friend a small pink hair pin with LV patterns on it. How I wish I would have a chance to see my friend with that thing on her head, it'll be a damn superb scene for sure! Then I urged her to open up my envelope, but heck, she let the necklace slipped onto the floor and everyone was like "HORRRRR!" I loved the ambience there. Those girls made me miss my guiding days a lot despite the fact that I wasn't an active member :p

The funnier thing was that my friend asked me, "Do you want a hug?" Come on, she's sitting in between her friends, how insincere she was! So she climbed up and gave me a hug. The others and I were laughing our heads off. Then she asked me if I wanted a kiss. I thought she was just kidding but she really kissed me on my cheek. Kinda surprised me though, but I don't have any problem with that. Awwww....sweet girl! :*

I would love to hangout with this gang but Wan Fen and Wenn Yee were waiting for me outside the restaurant, I couldn't leave them right there standing under the shade just to wait for me and it would be rude for me to dump them to stay with my Girl Guides friends. Tata...it's time to say goodbye and I leapt out of the restaurant.

Hehe....although it was just a very short hangout time, as I recalled all those memories that I used to have with my friend, I really miss HER and miss Girl Guides A LOT. The days when we screamed, laughed, scolded, teased each other; the endless text messages; she always ran out of phone credit during our texting season; she being crazy about Christina Grimmie with me; she asked me to remember her cute face whenever I see guitars in the following days and lots lots more....The best memory with her is the one of the most funniest moments in my life ever: There was once she thought I confessed to her and wanted to be in a relationship with her. Apparently, I was playing a huge prank on her. Too bad she didn't know me well back then or else she wouldn't have fallen for that joke. And, she was really really really worried about that topic because she didn't know what to do and I kept on replying her Facebook messages in a very complicated way making her more and more confused. In the end when she found out the truth from me, she demanded me to give her a dark chocolate as a token of apology, yet, she forgot to meet me outside my class and I dumped that choco into the trash!!!

Major memories and minor memories....no matter what, I really do cherish them and I will always do forever.

The final thing that I want to say before ending this post:-

Thank you so much for being an incredibly amazing friend. Love you forever babe, and PLEASE always keep in touch! I don't mind you spamming my Facebook or my Skype, whatever you do, just don't lose contact. Saranghae <3 <3

The most important of all!!!

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I'm dedicating this entire post to you my dearest Delyn Choong! Siao gina! HAPPY SWEET 17!!!! xoxo <3 Muaks

Sunday, January 1, 2012

My Arrival....

I used to envy other peeps who can have their own blogs and they can express whatever they want without any restrictions AT ALL. I have a blog. A food blog, which my mom and her friend who I called a SIFU is keeping an eye on.

I love blogging food posts, but I am a human as well. Looking at those awesome bloggers out there, like XiaXue and Cheeserland and Qiu Qiu. They are totally amazing in their own style. They stand out because they have their own personality. Both of them are special in their own ways. Be it fashion, random pictures, random articles or whatsoever, they are simply COOL. I always want to be able to blog about stuffs which have nothing to do with food posts. Yet, I didn't feel like starting a new blog as I already have a little traffic on my food blog and starting a new blog means I have to start everything from zero.

Last 2 weeks, having absolutely nothing to do in KL, I suddenly felt like blogging. But I didn't have my camera cable with me. I couldn't do any food posts on my blog. So, I decided to write a super random post about a Korean drama which I was (still am) crazy about. Well, a blog is a place to write freely right?!? I thought it won't hurt or affect anything at all as I already labelled that post as "random" and I had also clarified that it's total crap. If the readers don't feel like reading, I bet everyone will just scroll down the page or find something else to read...ain't that the truth?!

Fate had it otherwise....yesterday, my mom went to my food blog to look up for a restaurant's contact number and she saw those random stuffs that I uploaded. You know what happened next?! She scolded me as if I had committed some kind of serious crime. To her, posting random articles on my food blog means:
1) I am so NOT holding onto my principle.
2) I am extremely obsess with celebrities until I am turning my life upside down.
3) I don't have any persistence in doing things.
In real, she came up with a gazillion of reasons and I got told off.

Come on, get a life. Leave me alone can you?! Christina uploads random videos of herself talking and being crazy on her MUSIC channel, Cheeserland uploads random vain pictures of herself on her blog, Xiaxue blogs about everything she feels like blogging....Yet, they are successful. People love them. People look up to them. They are people's inspirations.

So, right here right now.....I build up this blog. INTUITION-MAGICDRAG. Named after my favourite Korean celebrities' songs: Cn Blue's Intuition and Jang Keun-Suk's Magic Drag. Intuition, Jik Kam, aka Chik-Kkwan. Yesh, you get me right, the title says it all. Sometimes when you've gone through too much reasoning thinking, you may freak yourself out and not being brave enough to go your own way. That's why I rather rely on intuition, probably not every time, but mostly it's intuition....I live in my own world, I do things my own way. I dream my own dreams. I life my own life. Whatever I do, PLEASE don't try to get into my way, or I would just run over you like a piece of pancake without mercy.

If you like me, if you like my stuffs, feel free to leave me comments or follow me. I love hearing from my readers. If you don't like me, it's absolutely alright with me. I won't feel bad or whatsoever. Because, love me or hate me, I'm still an obsession.

WELCOME TO THE OPENING OF INTUITION!

Peace and Love.